Posted: Wed Mar 10, 2010 6:22 pm
To those who may not of seen me post on here and those who have forgotten that I have posted on here I shall start at the beggining of my desperate situation.
Just under a year ago I ran out of credit that I was robbing Peter to pay Paul with and my reality check came when I had got paid and two days later I had no money to do a food shop with.
I pulled my head out of the sand and contacted Money,debt and credit within 5 weeks of contacting them I had my IVA approved. My immediate relief was immense and I was so pleased to the point of posting on here it was the best thing that IVA was the best thing to happen to me (other than my kids)
Well 10 mths into IVA and I am days off failing, my original I&E wasnt realistic far from it and yes it was a fab improvement on what it had been and I have made some amazing changes in my spending habits and at one point I had £15 in a savings account.
BUT as nothing was realistic and I didnt have any sort way of paying for the blips in life such as car maintainace as the allowance for that had been swallowed up with something else. My child care allowance is half the cost of my child care actual costs and that my tax credits are due to drop by £75 a month in April is a prime example that i was deluded in thinking this would ever work.
I did get in touch with my IVA company and spoke to my account manager after I missed 2 payments who told me that we could try a variation but when all said and done can only vary it by 5%. I mentioned Bankruptcy but he said I would risk my job. I then stupidly had a think and decided I would try and make this work and paid another payment.Then my car broke down and reality hit again.
I am now avoiding my account manager, as I feel pressurised into having a converstaion with their variation team and him. My depression that I have nnot suffered from for 3.5yrs is now back with a vengance I am at my lowest darkest point that I have felt in years and even though I know that I should call him I really cant face being told that I am in a mess I know I am.
I did check out with my hr dept and i wont loose my job if I did go bankcrupt and got my head round going bankrupt. Then when talking to national debt line they told me that my car on hp would have to go back. I am unable to live without a car as I need a reliable one due to living in a rural location and to get to work. If I didnt have a car my child care would go up even more almost as much as the hp payment itself and that is before public transport costs.
So long story short I am back to the drawing board and seeking help that I should of a year ago.
I am eating a large slice of humble pie, feel stupid but worse than ever is the black hole of depression that my 2 children are starting to notice.
And please if you are looking here for the first time please be 100% and some sure that the right proposal is put forward for you.
Thanks in advance for any words of wisdom
Deex
Just under a year ago I ran out of credit that I was robbing Peter to pay Paul with and my reality check came when I had got paid and two days later I had no money to do a food shop with.
I pulled my head out of the sand and contacted Money,debt and credit within 5 weeks of contacting them I had my IVA approved. My immediate relief was immense and I was so pleased to the point of posting on here it was the best thing that IVA was the best thing to happen to me (other than my kids)
Well 10 mths into IVA and I am days off failing, my original I&E wasnt realistic far from it and yes it was a fab improvement on what it had been and I have made some amazing changes in my spending habits and at one point I had £15 in a savings account.
BUT as nothing was realistic and I didnt have any sort way of paying for the blips in life such as car maintainace as the allowance for that had been swallowed up with something else. My child care allowance is half the cost of my child care actual costs and that my tax credits are due to drop by £75 a month in April is a prime example that i was deluded in thinking this would ever work.
I did get in touch with my IVA company and spoke to my account manager after I missed 2 payments who told me that we could try a variation but when all said and done can only vary it by 5%. I mentioned Bankruptcy but he said I would risk my job. I then stupidly had a think and decided I would try and make this work and paid another payment.Then my car broke down and reality hit again.
I am now avoiding my account manager, as I feel pressurised into having a converstaion with their variation team and him. My depression that I have nnot suffered from for 3.5yrs is now back with a vengance I am at my lowest darkest point that I have felt in years and even though I know that I should call him I really cant face being told that I am in a mess I know I am.
I did check out with my hr dept and i wont loose my job if I did go bankcrupt and got my head round going bankrupt. Then when talking to national debt line they told me that my car on hp would have to go back. I am unable to live without a car as I need a reliable one due to living in a rural location and to get to work. If I didnt have a car my child care would go up even more almost as much as the hp payment itself and that is before public transport costs.
So long story short I am back to the drawing board and seeking help that I should of a year ago.
I am eating a large slice of humble pie, feel stupid but worse than ever is the black hole of depression that my 2 children are starting to notice.
And please if you are looking here for the first time please be 100% and some sure that the right proposal is put forward for you.
Thanks in advance for any words of wisdom
Deex