Thanks guys,
Always nice to hear from you Lily, how are things with you?
You are so right Ang, really wish I had done this sooner. You don't realise how bad things are when you have your head firmly in the 'things will get better sand box' it's only when that stark realisation hits you firmly between the eyes that you see thing differently, then the panic really sets in and you just don't know which way to turn, thankfully I found this forum and you guys or I just don't know what I would have done. Obviously I don't use my cards now, my wallet feels very empty, but we are still managing, even got us a bottle of wine for tonight, ok it's only a bottle of Tesco's £2.79 own make, but I paid for it (had to go back for it and the rest of my shopping Dohhh) but it's paid for and I've made a big pan of chilli, which I think will last us a month. Just hope everything turns out ok, so desperate to put this all behind me now and get on with my life with my family and give my kids there dad back. Had a very sleepless night last night worrying about it all with loads of stuff swimming around in my head, used the cards to buy things with for years now, Birthdays, Christmas, shopping, weekends away, a couple of breaks away etc, what will they say when they look back at my statements and realise I've been so stupid? Had to do the hardest thing in my life yesterday, I sat down and talked to my kids about it. Didn't tell them everything, there are things they don't need to know, things that are my problem and mine alone to carry, they are kids and don't need to know everything. But I talked to Jane and decided that it was obvious there was something going on and they needed some sort of explanation. My daughter who is 10 was fine, doesn't mind what is going on as long as we're happy. My son who is 14 said he kinda guessed anyway, I think we don't give our kids enough credit sometimes, they know more than you think, and I didn't want them worrying or making there own minds up as to what was going on, so I thought it best to reassure them a little. Hope everything is ok soon. It's hard as I want them to be proud of me, I so hope the business takes off and my family can be proud, and I can hold my head up high and have some self respect for myself once again. One thing for sure though this has made me much stronger, with a very different outlook on life, no matter what happens next. Whoaaa, sorry guys not sure where that all came from didn't mean to on, anyway going to stir my chilli now and have a slug of wine. Thanks guys
Best wishes
Mike
