well thanks guys, yes i'm not down at all, i refuse to be.Health of course is important,physical and mental. As for the ex, well, i was to blame as well,i freaked him out completely with my don't ever screw me over attitude, and i've moved on from being that person, i do not need a cohabitating relationship just now, i'm really enjoying filling my days with work and other activities,hobbies etc.But i have missed him, and something was developing, though as i have mentioned before i'm not about to do what i've always done, thus getting what i've always got. We're planning to go for a movie tomorrow, so will see what happens, nervous, but really i'm almost sure i don't want anything serious, however i may melt a bit when i see him.That's natural though, and there will be no snogging at all !!!