Hi Bear (I love that name!), I can really feel for you regarding your family. Telling my mum was the hardest thing that I have ever done, but apart from the look she gave me (you know the sort that mothers specialise in!) she's been great, and even offered to take more equity out of her house for me. Obviously I said no to that, and she doesn't actually know how much I owe!
It is hard telling people. My partner said to me last night that he wishes I'd told him sooner about my debts, but like you say the shame makes you keep it all to yourself. I think I've got past the shame stage now, and now if people offer to pay for anything for me, I say yes. I will owe a lot of people at the end of my IVA, not because they want anything back from me, but because I want to do something for them and I will be happy to do it.
I am one of the lucky ones, I don't have children (no maternal instincts whatsoever, although I'm ok with other peoples!), so I don't have the worries about child minding fees and clothes for them. I do feel very guilty that my partner is subsidising me so much so that my IVA can (hopefully) run its course - it wasn't meant to be like this.
I know you have thought about this a lot, but please think again about telling your parents. I waited until my IVA was approved before telling my mum, as I wanted to prove to her that I had done something about is - it made it seem better somehow. Are you in an IVA or waiting for your creditor's meeting? Sorry, I know you've already said somewhere but I've got a brain like a sieve, or daylight between the ears as my partner says! I'm sure you'll find that your parents are more disappointed that you haven't been able to share this with them.
I have set myself a some goals for when the IVA finishes as I think it will help me get through it - I will take my partner on holiday, save up for a sporty car (I'll be 36 so a bit old, but what the heck!), do something for my mum and hopefully get married. My partner is a bit unsure about the last one, but says he'll think about it!
One last thing - where abouts on the south coast are you from? My partner's mum has a holiday cottage in Pagham, near Chichester and we go there sometimes for the weekend. I envy you living on the South Coast - I love it!
Anyway, keep strong, and we are all here for each other as we are all in the same boat.
Onwards and upwards!!!
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Skippy on Sun Feb 18, 2007 5:20 pm, edited 1 time in total.