Well it’s been a long while since I posted here, and I guess you could say I am like the prodigal son, running home when things go wrong….but ‘wrong’ would be an understatement.
I was just trying to sort out paperwork to put forward a very poor F&F and feeling very frustrated by it all with my emotions all over the place and then something brought me ‘home’ and I started searching for hope again here.
I was made redundant at the end of last month, quite unexpectedly and with very little in the way of a settlement, approx the equivalent of 6 mths wages.(despite having been there 15yrs) Having contacted my IP to see where I go from here, and very down at the prospects, given my age and health in the current job market, I was awaiting a response and feeling that it just couldn’t get any worse…when it did.
My son-in-law died suddenly at the age of 34 just 2 weeks ago and our world has been ripped apart. My daughter has been left with the three girls and another due in 4weeks, and is obviously distraught. I have been staying with her and doing the only thing a mother can do, holding her while she sobs and feeling totally useless as I can’t heal this hurt with a ‘kiss better and a hug’
This pain has made everything seem so insignificant, and all I want to do is protect what I can and get us all through this, physically, emotionally and financially.
Anyone who remembers me will know that I believed in the IVA and was so happy to get it all sorted, it has been going well and without these tragic turns of fate, would have continued. But now, it seems so unimportant, and I just want it gone. It is only while writing this that I realised that when my IP called about my options, I was a mess, and broke down crying, I briefly explained why and she didn’t comment, just said what they needed to have sent (ie; bills and bank statements, proof of looking for work etc.) and that she would write to confirm it. It surprises me as they are usually so thoughtful, but it made me realise that at the end of the day it’s a business agreement.
This afternoon I sat with my daughter in my arms, as she cried while trying to comfort my 3yr old granddaughter in her arms, who was sobbing for her Baba to come home. The little one sobbed for nearly an hour, my daughter and I cried a lot longer. Now I am looking for the stuff the IP needs and it all seems so irrelevant. But I need to protect as much as I can and still have this all done with.
Thank you for letting me vent….and please, please hold the ones you love close and tell them often…the blink of an eye can change so much.
Never take a moment or a loved one for granted in the blink of an eye they may be lost forever.
You are welcome to view my ramblings here.
http://cazlizzy.blogs.iva.co.uk
Carole
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