Nicky went to see the consultant last week , and he too was concerned that baby seemed not to have grown in 2 weeks. She had also moved and there was some concern that a C section may be needed. Not what we wanted to hear. She had to wait till Monday to get her scan so a very stressful and emotional weekend for us all. Well, at least that turned out fine, baby had moved over the week-end and was back to head down and engaged, and they were able to measure her accurately and she’s spot on target. A huge relief, now we just have to get Nicky safely to delivery, as they were concerned about her pelvis as there is a slight chance that with the additional weight gained in these last few months, her pelvis could fracture.
I can’t say things are better; perhaps more controlled now, would be a better way of putting it. I know Nicky still cries herself to sleep and the disbelief is still there for all of us. We see a picture of Mazen and it’s so hard to take in that he isn’t just away working, or playing football or something. It’s also too easy to forget that the 2 older girls are grieving too. Jess broke down in class yesterday and was taken to the mentor/councillors’ room. He talked with her and poor love had been bottling it all up so she wouldn’t upset her mum. At least it brought it out and they have decided to take my suggestion to create a memory box together. Hopefully it will give them time together to share the tears and fears and the joys of their memories and feel safe in doing that. It breaks my heart to see them like this though.
In the midst of all this I got a call from Cleardebt about my proposal. They turned down my request for a F&F based on payments to date, not surprisingly, but didn’t mention the other one. I have to say it was not a good call for all sorts of reasons. I was upset at the time and didn’t respond very well to it. In fact I don’t think I responded much at all, I listened and just kept feeling that they just didn’t understand the situation. Their response, while I’m sure they felt it was fair, just left me feeling that instead of helping relive the situation it was in fact complicating it. I came off the phone with notes I wrote to allow me to consider it all over the weekend, a phone number I had to call to claim off their insurance (then I am sure more forms to fill in) and a feeling that they were more concerned about securing their fees and creditor dividends. That may be very unfair, but I began to think it would be easier to just let the IVA fail and go BR.
I sat and cried when the call ended.
I have now looked at the notes I made, and with a clearer head I can see some miscalculations in what I’m allowed to keep and therefore what I have to pay across into the iva from my redundancy. As for the insurance policy, I don’t need the complication of applying for that at this point, so I am going to e-mail Mike with what they proposed and what I feel it should be. Hopefully he will make sure I am on the right track with it so I don’t have to have yet another stressful conversation.
Never take a moment or a loved one for granted in the blink of an eye they may be lost forever.
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Carole
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