lilly and skippy, thank you for your kind words. I will be alright in the end. Life for the past year has been difficult for me,but it has given me the opportunity to reassess my life. When I was first diagnosed with a heart condition I was terrified. My heart would pound against my chest whenever I had to deal with a debt collector.
Then one day, I felt this sensation accross my chest and and neck. The next thing I knew I was on an ambulance with an oxygen mask on my face.
I didn't think about the debt collectors. I didn't think about how the bills would be paid. I didn't think about being unemployed. I do remember thinking about my family. I remember thinking, ''Please Lord, please Lord, I can't die. My daughters and husband need me.'' I was pleading with the man upstairs like I never have before.
And something else I remember about that day that I shall never ever forget, my husband. He was on the ambulance with me. His face, I'll never forget his face at that moment.His facial expression was blank. His face and lips were pale. Through his eyeglasses, I could see tears. I have never seen him cry before. And it was 'eerie' crying. He cried silently. Ladies, this touched every ounce of my soul.
It was in that moment this thought quickly entered my mind. ''OH! My! This is what the great poets were trying to express. This is what they were trying to say and I always referred to it as 'mushy'! This man love me...he really loves me. Well, either that or he was sad over the life insurance policies being cancelled because we could not afford them anymore. Anyway, from that day on I changed.
I no longer burned his meals(sorta scourched them)and we no longer argued (kinda didn't throw the pans anymore). We couldn't afford to attend restaurants. So, I would light tea candles and place them in the diningroom to create an ambiance. We could not afford entertainment either. So, I created a version of pin the tail on the donkey and named it pin the tail on the debt collector.Oh, how we would laugh whenever we played it.
In my younger years, I had a saying,'' romance without the finance does not stand a chance.'' When I think back to those years, I am grateful for personal growth and maturity. Today, one of my sayings are,'' Judge a man by the content of his character, not by the
contents of his wallet. I tell my daughters that one.[:)]
Life is perculiar sometimes. When handed lemons, make lemonade. When handed flowers, make a nice arrangement. When handed bills, head for the nearest door (smile). When you have debt problems, get help from a professional. It may not always work out the way you hope it will, but at least you knew your options.
I shall put on my helmet of strength and fight another day.
Take care.
All I have left is my humour.
