You are tying yourself into knots and its not healthy. Are you on your own hunni? Its easy for us to say, yes, no, yes, OK. However you dont seem to be able to turn off your own brain right now and seem to need constant reasurance. Its not easy to tune out when you have noone to bounce off, I know that from my own experience but ask yourself, whats the absolute worse thing that could happen? The Co-op will accept you but they do take their own sweet time.
1) you have a lovely new Lloyds account, give that to your employer so you have your wages nice and safe.
2) Pick the bl****dy phone up tomorrow and get yourself in the know with what your options are.
3) No-one is going to breeak in and shoot you at dawn.
4) Noone is going to half inch your money in your new account.
What is it that you fear the most, hunni? I am getting worried about you as you are so stressed out and worried. In every situation there are short term and long term goals. You have got to take each step one at a time, the road can be bumpy and scary but you are in the same boat as most on here and noone is going to let you fall out. All you need to do is hang on in there and let someone help you.
Try to relax a little bit and stop the head from worrying, youre in danger of imploding here.
lili youre making me laugh-youre so funny-hope noone breaks in lol x youre a real sweetie x
i know im being an a-hole at min. i am stressed bout work too.im gonna ring mel tomorrow !
Please make sure you ring Melanie tomorrow - I'm going on holiday on Saturday and I want to know that you're on the way to getting yourself sorted before I go!
Dont call yourself names hunni, youre obviously stressed out and at breaking point, somthing's got to give soon, I just dont want it to be you.
I really do feel for you and I am happy to give you my email if you want to talk off board.
You will get there.
PS (I was like you, when I first wanted help, scared stupid and no reassurance was enough).
I first posted on another site and wrote everything in capitals. I was so desperate and wanted to just get it out, I couldnt think of capitals and stuff like that.
i really think u n skip have a talent for this stuff. i wasnt joking. i really think you should write about this it would sell very well. you are an absolute angel x and u skip x and ang too and emma lovely lovely people x
im calling tomorrow afternoon-after work x
