Hi
Yes I have been there, we had been together for ever it seemed but I had to leave as I was too scared to stay. He was violent too and I just never knew when he would kick off, in the end my eldest son took some pills as he was so unhappy he didnt want to live. I really had no choice, my ex could be so nice but was jekyll and hide, I missed the christmases and the times he was lovely. Someone to look nice for and someone to share the bad days with. Its very hard at first but I made a life for myself slowly and someone said, 'when you make it on your own, you will know youre living, not existing, which is what you were doing before'. You cannot look to anyone else for happiness, its something all of us have within us.
It will get better, you do grieve for a lost marriage, whatever the circumstance are/were.
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freelili on Mon Sep 08, 2008 9:38 pm, edited 1 time in total.