Please dont give up, sometimes its really hard to look here and see everyone else moving on, getting sorted and well just content with their life.
I saw so many of my friends get sorted, come through and I felt crap, even though I posted messages of support and everything else. I would have given anything to be one of them, just take a day out of my hell, or see some sunshine, I couldnt. I had lost my best friend in the whole world, It hurt like hell, why had this happened to me?? It so wasnt fair, I knew no matter what, I would wake up with that same pain tomorrow. I would have to go to my mothers house, pack up her life, sell the home that was always somewhere to turn, someone who cared and who I could always count on to understand. Life was black and I did feel like giving up.... I knew that other people loved me, needed me and if I gave up, they would never know how much I loved them, how could I fail them???
You have become a very lovely, important person in this community, you just shine right through. Just how you have reached out to others, we want to reach out to you, and say, it will get better, it did for me. Youre not walking through life right now, youre climbing, vertically and its so very hard, you feel like youre going to fall, youre scared. You will get there, life is very cruel sometimes. We are here to listen and to chat to. Like Viki, I am having trouble with emails but as soon as I can get through I will.
Take care now, and please dont give up.
