Hello.

[quark2008]

Some of you know I'm due to have surgery. This bar steward, twunting, mother ducking government have decided to start winding down the very hospital it is due at. I'm distraught, my friends and family are too. I'm almost ready to finish myself off with the enormous pile of drugs I have at my disposal. Funny innit, this all started out at seeking a debt solution. Funny old ducking world. I could seriously swear for England right now.

[Shining]

Quark hi and I can imagine your frustration. I would be swearing for England too if I were you.

Are they transferring you to another hospital?

[kazzafunk]

Sorry to hear that Quark - don't do anything stupid with the medication - why should you give up just because the Government are a bunch of w***ers!

I must say the NHS seems to be falling apart doesn't it. I hope you can get transferred without too much trouble.

[quark2008]

I've been doing so well, little tweaks here and there, ra ra ra. Close eye kept on me. And tonight, I have had the most enormous sobbing snot fest, literally that, childhood bawling when you hold your breath, and then ooof ooof ooof a few hours laters still, kind of thing. I never knew I could produce so much snot. I'm talking at least half a pint full. What a BITCH

[quark2008]

And the great news is, I've just become a great uncle. Good news to end a **** day.

[KM1512]

Quark hang in there, I have been there and the medication isn't an answer instead once I was taken to hospital I had to face the music the next day and it caused all sorts of problems and it hurt my children so much. Life is worth living out of every bad situation there is always good and you have received good news already there is new life that needs you around good luck and please hang in there tomorrow will be a better day

[Broke of London]

There is good in every situation, even if it is hidden at first!

Amazing news becoming a great uncle - congratulations!! Babies bring such joy and fun into a family and a cuddle with the little one sounds like just what you need.

I can't imagine your disappointment and frustration and worry about the hospital. There will be another hospital for you to go to...possibly with a better surgeon and better facilities!?!?

A good cry can't be bettered for releasing all those pent up emotions. I hope you feel better in the morning and forget those thoughts about the meds. Your life is worth more than that to you and all the people who love you.

@KM. I didn't realise you had been at such a low. It's inspirational to see how far you have come from that point and just shows that life can change. On the forum you come across as being a very positive, upbeat person.
x

[KM1512]

Broke I would be now but when my husband left (becuase he had an affair with a younger girl and they had an 16 month son which I didn't know about)and the debts were high I just didn't know where to turn my girls were crying they wanted there daddy back and I couldn't give them that I felt a losser that night for the first time from I had children and I thought they would be better off with there father in a family so in the heat or the moment it happened and I woke up in hospital feeling more ashamed and hurt so I knew from them I need to bounce back but slowly. I have two lovely daughters (I cannot have sons so that is why I felt a failer also) and I have a good job a any assistant manager to a local authority so I am not that bad off there are people worse. Sorry for the long rant but just wanted to fill you in thanks for the kind words broke

[luluj]

Congratulations on becoming a great-uncle - a reason to stand proud and loud and look to the future .....

[Niobe]

Congrats on becoming a great uncle Quark.

Sorry about the news of the hospital - will you still be able to have it done?

[quark2008]

Of course I won't do anything ridiculous. I got myself into a state. I am hanging on for every bit of treatment and every word said, as I trust my docs completely, the thought of being transferred elswehere, made me panic. The NHS is falling apart, that is for sure. Some fellow patients I know have been taken off the elective list already. Thank you for all the good wishes about the new arrival, she was expected, just not on that day.