jane you need to calm down and take a step back from the situation, you are making it worse for your self thinking of the what ifs, what i am doing now is writing down all the real important things in my life and those that i would like but know i can no longer have, and believe me it is helping, take today for instance, i need to go to the supermarket, any other time jump in the car and off i go, the thought of having to get the bus there really wore me down, until my little one got so excited about going on the bus, it was a new adventure to her as she is so used to being taxi'd about.
the other way i am looking at things jane is the things that they are taking back off me weren't mine anyway, realistically i had only borrowed them until i could pay for them, which i can't so they have to go.
don't regret what is happening, the sooner you go BR and are out of limbo the easier it will feel, i promise you that, and then when you buy anything you know its yours for keeps as you have bought it with your own money, you have a family to think of and that is what you should do, i have done all the screaming, shouting and crying and no one was benefitting from that and certainly not my kids, i have put them through enough to worry about any material things now, we will have to move soon, so that will be another adventure that we will all be doing together, try and think positively, you really need to sort the BR situation out and move forward.
take care
kerri
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